Numb

So, have you ever felt as though your entire body is numb? You're conscience but you can't move or talk? Well that's basically how I felt Tuesday night when I went out to dinner with my ex-boyfriend. I was in a complete shock. I'm guessing it's because of the pain that he's put me through and the way I was actually reacting to the whole situation. I love him very much and actually thought that our relationship was "one of a kind" but I was definitely proven wrong. I sometimes wonder to myself if I am doing the right thing by keeping contact with him, because in the end it just makes it harder to let go. I know that he loves me but his actions sometimes make me wonder. My autobiographical essay was about the heartache that I endured and I wrote it from my heart. I don't know. I'm just really confused and hurt. Maybe in time I'll realize what it is that I truly want. Maybe his actions will change and he'll become the person I actually fell in love with. All I can do is just sit and wait for my heart to make it's decision.

Wow

Okay so I'm writing this blog a little late, but yesterday was so hectic! I was runninng errands all day and I didn't have time to even think. In the middle of all my chaos I recieved a random text message from my ex boyfriend. I hate those! But whatever I really can't say that I hate them because in reality it feels good to know that he's atleast thinking about me. Anyways, I got my charger for my computer and as promised I am going to fix my page and make it pretty. haha. I think I'm probably going to restart all my blogs and just start from scratch. Well I'm off to work.

Boring

Well I went on to reply to some blogs and realized that my page is really boring :) I promise that once I get my laptop fixed I will make my page more interesting. I just got out of work right now and I'm about to go on my first blind date. Ahhh!! As soon as my laptop is fixed I plan on writing interesting blogs as well. Well for right now I'll leave it at this. But my computer gets fixed tomorrow so I'll come back on and start from scratch. I'll tell you about my blind date and why it's so akward for me. I promise to explain.

Hi I'm Nikki

Hey everyone! My name is Nicole but I prefer to be called Nikki. I'm 19 years old and I might not give too much of a good impression at first but I'm actually very friendly. I don't know if i would consider myself to be shy, but I just don't say much at first. I'm very random and honest, don't like to lie and cannot stand liars! I'm majoring in Nursing and want to work in labor and delivery. I withdrew from my last english class because my professor wasn't well organized, I'm guessing this class will be MUCH better. Well that's all I can think of now. Any questions let me know :)